Medicated

I deleted my facebook..

I have de-activated it a few times, but this time I REALLY DONT WANT IT BACK..

Have you noticed how addictive it is?

And it kinda turns you into a bad person- It’s so easy to find someone, its so easy to dislike/like what they present themselves as on Facebook.

Bullying is easier, because people feel safe behind the barrier of a keyboard and there is no real consequences, because it is taken seriously socially maybe, but if you bully someone it’s kinda shrugged off as no big deal- But it really is.

People come to me and say ‘Did you hear about what happened; did you see her status update?’ And I just don’t want to be included in it anymore. I find I’ve already gotten so much stuff done, picked up my guitar again and started a work on a canvas. I just kinda want things to be back to how they were, you know, you wanted to meet someone and a week in advance you organised a time and a date. Or just texting, no drama, just privacy and direct contact to the person you want to talk to.

Fuck, I sound like my grandmother. Rant over, Thanks!

You can….

Call me crazy, that I was in hospital and therefore can’t be trusted

Say I am a liar

Manipulate those who are mine

break the walls

break the pride

break the self esteem

but you will never forget, and I will come back and redeem the fact that I am now gone, and possibly, just maybe, with a hint and a glimmer you realize I was all you ever needed. 

Onwards and upwards to my selfish indulgence, I’m ready for this life with nothing to sink my ship, memories are always precious, but you were a wreck my darling. I will no longer stand on your shore, watching into the distance, waiting for you to change as the waves cusp upon my feet.

Goodbye

Goodluck

Never come back.

And I’m okay now.

It seems to be that the anxiety is stopped. No more night terrors, no more bad thoughts, no more insecurities, just a shift into a beautiful life, with someones hand to hold whom I love more than ever. I feel better now, I think I might try this whole living thing? okay starting now. 

A track from a friend of mineee

http://soundcloud.com/the-niew/strobe-the-niew-remix